What is a work out??? AND so much more!!!

I was recently in a talk with my therapist about what I personally think a Work-out is... How hard one should "work" to define a work out to be a work out!! It was a hard conversation to have and one I did not want to have. I just feel that I must be sweating and have burn many, many calories for it to be a work out. Not for me to have been at practice marching, dancing and spinning my flag. It is just not enough for me!!! I do not think she understands. It is all a minute way of me finding out what I like and do not like. Some of the things I like may not be healthy and right.

In the last week so much has happened and I got injured. I had an injury to my thumb. This injury made it very hard to type for a period of time. The brace the doctors had me was not the best but now I am out of it an I can type away!!! :)

I also witnessed my good friend having a Grand Mal Seizure. This was hard for me to see and be a part of. I happen to walk in when it was all happening. I knew she was sick and I walked in to check in on her. I was forced to step in as a first responder helping out with all my training. Telling her roommate what to do, rolling her over, and so on. Then I had to be supportive of her roomy another one of my friends. She could not take what she was seeing. It was not till after everything was over. The EMS had taken her to the ER and I was alone that I got to take in what I saw. I decided to paint. I had to get my feelings out some way.

More to come!!!!!

New Day to be Me!!

Today is a very new day to find out who I really am and not what everyone else wants me to be. In my first class today, photography, we got an assignment to research a photographer from the past. find out more about them. I was thinking about it I get to find out who another person is while I am finding out who I am!! Yeah me!! HAHAHA

Who am I? Well today I have to take a test and I feel overwhelmed with an

xiety about this test and quiz. The test is a makeup one and the quiz is not. I really need to do good on the quiz. It is a chance to get extra credit on the test that I will be making-up. I guess 42% fail the test I'm taking today. But I know I can do it.

Eating wise and anxiety wise it is hard. But I am trying to remain confident in my self and the ones around me for support. I do not want them to get me down!! If you pray for me today. i my do two post in one day but I just had to get this off my chest before this class!! Have a great day. Remember BE YOURSELF!!

Being Loved By ME

I want to see more people say that they are loved by me, as in themselves. Although it would be nice for other people to see that I am more then a happy face they see at a Football game smiling with my flag, that girl you see sitting next you in class. I am nice. I care. I do not want to harm anyone and if I do I really do not mean anything by it. Okay I got off topic a little but I do have a point to all of this rambling.

All to often people are quick to get down on them selfs and bash the little imperfection about them. When they do something good they do not see it most of the time because they are focusing on the bad things that are going on in their lives. Personally I do it all to often I need to stop it. I need to find out who I am and stop changing my ways to fit what I think others want me to be. I am not going to really start loving me until I learn who I am in the inside.

That is what this blog is about. Learning who I am. I know it is going to put up fights and road blocks but that is why I want to right about it and post pics.

All humans are ever changing beings, right now I am changing toward the positive. Please let me know what you think as I keep track of my step to getting to know WHO I am.