Please Hear What I'm Not Saying

Please Hear What I do Don't Say!!!


Don't be fooled by me. Don't be fooled by the masks I wear,

For I wear a mask, I wear a thousand masks, masks that I am afraid to take off,

But none of them are me, pretending is an art that is second nature to me,

But don't be fooled, for God sake, don't be fooled.

What you see on the surface is not always what is inside,
What I hold on the outside is not on my inside, 
Don't be fooled by the face I can hold in front of you at times, 
I give you the impression that I am secure, 

That all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well as without,

That confidence is my name and coolness is my game,

That the water is calm and I am in command, and that I need no one.

Please don't believe me, Please!

My surface may be smooth but my surface but my surface is my mask,

My varying and ever concealing mask.

Beneath lies no smugness, no complacence,

Beneath dwells the real me,

In confusion and fear, in loneliness.

I idly chatter with you in the suave tones of surface talk, 

I tell you everything that's really nothing, of what is crying within me.

So when I am going through my routine,

Please don't be fooled by what I'm not saying, 

And what I'd like to be able say, what for recovery I need to say.

But what I can't say.

Only you can call me into aliveness,

Each time you're kind and gentle, and encouraging.

My heart begins to grow wings,

Very small wings, very feeble wings but wings.

With your sensitivity and sympathy, and your power of understanding,

You can breathe life into me, I want you to know that.

I want you to know how important you are to me, 

How you can be a creator of the person that is me if you choose to.

Please choose me.  Do not pass me by. It will not be easy for you.

My long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls.

The nearer you approach to me, the blinder I may striker back.

I fight against the very thing I cry out for.

But I am told that love is stronger than wall.

In this lies my hope. My only hope.

Please don't believe my mask.

Please come behind it to glimpse the real me.

Please speak to me, share a little of yourself with me,

At least recognize me.  Don't pass me by because of my mask,
Recognize me, help me recover, 
Please, because you care.