Roommates~
Bits and pieces is all you get. You do not have the right to know who i really am!! You have yet to know me long enough to really know my secrets. Why should I trust you?? Why do I need to tell you that I have an Eating Disorder??? Why do I need to tell you that I had a very hard and confusing adolescences. What have you done in that last month to deserve my trust??
You have not sat down with me and tried to get to know me. You have not sat down with me and given me the chance to open up. All you have done is made me feel like I am constantly being judged. You make me feel like I am not good enough. Like I will never fit into this world. I should never feel like that. No one should make me feel like that. You talk about me behind my back. All of you talk about me behind my about. Why do you think I only gave you bits and pieces of my life. Who are you to tell I am making things up?? Who are you to go looking up my life on line. Just ASK me. I will show you pictures!! My life is a book. You just need to talk to me to my face!! You need to be real with me before I am real with you. I know you "say" you are the least judgmental people in the world, but then you are all talking about each in the most judgmental ways!! Come on really.
This all hurts me so much. I do not know who to trust!! To do not know who to turn to! Some times I do not know what to do!! I am not sure how I am going to get through the next couple weeks/months like this. All I need is support, not judgment. This is hard!! All so very hard for me to understand and take on at time in my life!
~Ashley
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